Well, it is week 12 and I am approaching the end of my in Barcelona Spain। As I moved through my time here I continued to tell every one of my tremendous growth as well as my wonderful experiences. None of that has changed but at the same time so many other things have changed in my life. I don’t want to be confusing but I found myself praying to God and saying “God, how can I lose myself and find myself at the same time? This entire experience has been totally mystifying to me. Not only am I saying that I am a changed person but I move from day to day and see the tremendous changes within me. It is so crazy that I had so much mapped out and now…॥ I am not so sure about the things I was so sure about before. I am wondering if this is something I will experience more when I return to the United States. Lots of people are nearing their stay here and honestly starting to act out of character….or was it their character to begin with? I really don’t know but this last few weeks instead of being a blast is somewhat becoming a drag. The weirdest feelings have been coming over me and I can’t get around them. Yes I am sad that I am leaving but I am not going be afraid to face the next stage in my life. People here keep asking me over and over am I going to be sad when I leave. I know I will miss some of the people here but honestly the people who really attempted to be a friend I know I will remain in contact with. So right now I welcome the challenges, growth, transition and uncertainty in this in journey called life.It seems the more I look around the more I realize that many people worldwide fail to want a life filled with substance, love and significance. That is sad. I honestly wonder how many people plan on soaking up this experience and keeping growth and valued lessons close to their hearts? I think I made some friends but not as many as I had hoped. It is so sad that finding real friends these days is like shopping in the clearance bin at Marshalls. There is a bunch of stuff that seems appealing until you turn it inside out and find out it is defective. The more exposure I have to individuals the more I see that people rather carry out their own agenda rather than develop something real with the ones they say they are close to.Honestly I think people are afraid to exit this party feel good atmosphere and are freaking out because real life once again is knocking on their door. I honestly am curious and excited for the new chapter of life. That is when I have to sit and be thankful for my spiritual guidance and maturity because there are some that never reach this point. So I am wrapping it up and I will close these notes from the trail by saying “live life to the fullest and take advantage of your full potential. Try your best to experience the richness of life by seeking things, and people filled with substance. Welcome change and hold on dearly to the significant things and moments in life. That is my life’s’ goal.
Love Yanice
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